erin sent me a link to a blog the other day in which the author describes the hate spiral, which is usually a chain of mildly annoying things that happen to a person at a constant rate throughout the day and result in that person exploding in a psychotic rage over something like an inconvenient gust or wind or a bird chirping too loudly outside of their window. i am in the midst of such a hate spiral and this is the only thing keeping me from lashing out physically right now. it began this morning at 7:30 am with me being propositioned for change at the Max stop from the seven hundred thousandth street kid with a pitbull this week. Then the Max was ten minutes late. How does that even happen. Then the girl at Starbucks didn't give me skim milk in my latte. I'm still ok, annoyed but not angry. After class, three more homeless people ask me for money, and one gets aggressive and indignant and yells at me. So I yell back "I'm a fucking waitress and make around 9 dollars an hour, how about you get a goddamn job and then see how much you wanna give your money away to some entitled douchebag stranger!" Then I had to walk down the street a few blocks to the next train stopbecause I was embarrassed about making a public scene (something I never had cause to do anyway before I moved here. This is the second time I've yelled at someone in public in like,three weeks). Then I went home and got a letter that my health insurance had been cancelled due to nonpayment when it was supposed to be autodrafted. Lovely. And now my roommates are having "band practice," and I am attaching a video with sound because I can't quite describe how mo-foing awful they are. I can feel the last straw coming up guys.
2 comments:
this made me laugh so hard. i love your posts. omgg
DAMN, I'm at work. Wanna hear the awful roomie band, though!!! GRRR... HATE SPIRAL COMING!
You're my hero for many reasons, but yelling at an agressive panhandler is near the top of the list.
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